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The Child I Never Was
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The Child I Never Was

2002-11-15 · 81 min · ★ 6.6

Drama · Crime

A serial killer dispassionately discusses the nuts and bolts of his grisly avocation, as well as the youthful traumas which helped to mold him into a psychopath, in this disturbing independent drama from Germany, based on the true story of of Germany's most famous child murderer Juergen Bartsch who, between the ages of 15 and 19, abused, tortured and killed four schoolboys in the Ruhr region of Germany from 1962 to 1966.

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Directors
Kai S. Pieck
Production companies
MTM West Television & Film, WDR
Countries
Germany
Status
Released
Revenue
USD 2,609

Top Cast

Tobias SchenkeTobias SchenkeJürgen Bartsch, Older
Ulrike BliefertUlrike BliefertGertrud Bartsch
Walter GontermannWalter GontermannGerhard Bartsch
Jürgen Christoph KamckeFather Seidlitz
Sebastian RügerSebastian RügerYoung Deacon
Stephan SzaszStephan SzaszYoung Priest
Roland RiebelingRoland RiebelingChaplain Herles
Sebastian UrzendowskySebastian UrzendowskyJürgen Bartsch, Younger

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