

I'm Not Everything I Want to Be
2024-10-03 · 91 min · ★ 7.9
After the Soviet invasion of Czechoslovakia in 1968, Libuše Jarcovjáková, a young female photographer, strives to break free from the constraints of Czechoslovak normalization and embarks on a wild journey towards freedom, capturing her experiences on thousands of subjective photographs.
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- Directors
- Klára Tasovská
- Production companies
- Mischief Films, Nutprodukcia, Somatic Films, Česká televize, ARTE GEIE
- Countries
- Austria, Czech Republic, France, Germany, Slovakia
- Status
- Released
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Libuše JarcovjákováSelf - Photographer / Narrator (voice)
Ester KrumbachováSelfTitle information and images are supplied by TMDb. Explore our discovery guide for advice on comparing metadata and legal viewing options.
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